I've been on Reta about 6 months, lost 70lbs, pretty much at goal weight and now trying to navigate how to eat like a normal person. It's my bday next weekend and we got tickets to a beer and food festival we go to every year, it's tons of vendors offering various food and alcohol options and it's always been one of my fave events but now I'm having anxiety about it. Like, I have been on a pretty strict diet for months, I have barely had any alcohol and I have become kind of neurotic about food. I barely want to go to this thing, I'm all worried about calories and weight gain but I really really don't want to be that person. I want to live my life and enjoy food and drink and not obsess like a crazy person - like, okay I gain a couple pounds - it doesn't have to be permanent, regroup for the next week. I keep telling myself that but I don't like how much effort it's taking to convince myself to just enjoy something. Anyway, anybody else crazy and working themselves into an eating disorder?

