What do you miss from 'before'?

[unclebuff702]

Getting drunk at a work function. One, and I can feel a little bit of a buzz, though I know I'll feel awful tomorrow. Two, and I feel drunk, but not in a "wooo" way. Midway through the third, and I'm pawing at my work-wife's sleeve, asking "Uh....I think I need to go home."

I was never a full on alcoholic because I didn't drink often enough or wreck my life with it, but I could usually be counted on to get drunk and loud at a work function. Now I just can't, and I miss it.

Anecdotally, I see a lot less of the drunk and loud folks at work functions and conferences, and I miss them too . Good ol cause and effect!

 

[bay_area_schizo]

I used to have lunch with work friends on an almost daily basis. I don't any more because there's no point in paying restaurant prices daily for what I eat. I miss the camaraderie and some of the food.

funny you say that. I'm realizing just how much of my social life revolved around food

 

[bay_area_schizo]

I miss eating a big meal and then spiraling down the "itis" wormhole in front of the TV

 

[wileyhorse]

I don’t miss a damn thing, because now, i know i can literally eat anything I want in moderation. If I want donuts, I’ll eat a donut… knowing I’ll be satisfied without eating a whole box of donuts. Very liberating!

 

[Sasquatch]

Tanquerae (sp?) Gin

I dearly fucking miss it. Don't even need vermouth. Just some olives and olive juice.

Then it's "Tanquerae take me away."

 

[amosmylove]

I miss wanting to have a cocktail. I wasn't a big drinker, but a nice old fashioned at a steakhouse was mint. Now, the thought of it makes me grimace like I smelled a fart.

I can hardly finish a drink now. I miss getting mexican food and a margarita and feeling a pleasant buzz. There's no way I could drink enough to get tipsy anymore. Plus no room for food if I drink anything except water with it.

 

[amosmylove]

I miss feeling motivated; it takes alot for me to want to do mostly anything.

Do you think that is because of the anhedonia side effect?

I have this issue in general but have always connected it to my adhd.

 

[amosmylove]

The funny thing is I'm now actually more into the idea of baking than before. It's an amazing thing to be able to have one portion and then stop and be fine with that, leaving the rest for my family members to enjoy. Before I usually avoided baking, even though I loved it, except for special occasions because I knew the sugar addiction would take hold and I'd make myself sick with my efforts.

I know what you mean with the thought of it taking hold. My main issue was I didn't want anything to be wasted. That was drilled into me as a kid. Don't waste your food! I would always finish my plate even if I was stuffed simply because it would feel wasteful to throw it away. Now I dish up so much less at home so it's fine, but even now I still struggle to waste food at restaurants and whatnot.

I am less encouraged to bake now that ever because my husband is just starting on tirz and asks me not to lol. Plus I don't like feeding my kids junk even if it's homemade. I cook/bake all organic generally and avoid a lot of ingredients for their sakes because they all turn into extra adhd nightmares when they are exposed to crappy foods.

 

[amosmylove]

I miss cowing out and ice cream after dinner.

Ice cream was one of my crutches. I tried some the other night for the first time in about 3 months and I ate less than half of it. I don't feel like trying again anytime soon. A good thing in the end, but it was a nice thing before. Too nice.

 

[amosmylove]

I still bake although less often and more responding to demand rather than just for the hell of it. I kinda miss how predictable eating used to be. Every day I'd need breakfast, lunch, dinner, dessert, and some snacks in between. These days I eat when I have to and that is not exciting or satisfying for some reason.

It seems like so much work to feed myself that many meals now. I just don't eat because unless it's fresh cooked and healthy it sounds terrible, so really I only eat dinner when we cook for the family. I've kicked everything processed now but before I'd always have a bag of simply cheeto puffs or popcorners in my cupboard to hide in my room and snack on without sharing with my kids.

 

[Sasquatch]

Carbonated beverages, pop, beer, it's tuff. So filling.

I've never been able handle Coke. But somehow I can crave a small bottle of coke.

 

[amosmylove]

I miss enjoying stuff. I always loved eating out and it was a special treat I looked forward to and now I just don't care or want anything and it doesn't seem worth the effort or expense of going out. I also loved a nice glass of wine and I still want to enjoy it - every few weeks I'll open a bottle of wine all optimistic and then drink half a glass and get no joy. Obviously the good outweighs the bad but I'm kind of grumpy today and was really wishing some wine and chocolate could cure me like it used to.

I can relate to this. We save a lot of money because I'm not buying all the snacks for myself and don't care to go out anymore. I mean going out was always expensive with 7 of us, but I would still push to eat out multiple times a week because I liked to get out and eat something different.

I haven't found anything that gives me a dopamine fix like treats used to before, except Brussels sprouts, which is odd.

 

[amosmylove]

Carbonated beverages, pop, beer, it's tuff. So filling.

I've never been able handle Coke. But somehow I can crave a small bottle of coke.

Yes! I have 2 soda stream type machines and would go through boxes of bubbly/waterloo each week because I craved carbonation. I even bought a special carbinator that would carbonate juices and wines and whatever. Now I have the same 8 pack of bubbly that's half full for months in my pantry.

 

[amosmylove]

I don’t miss a damn thing, because now, i know i can literally eat anything I want in moderation. If I want donuts, I’ll eat a donut… knowing I’ll be satisfied without eating a whole box of donuts. Very liberating!

It is good to feel safe in indulging. That's a freedom I didn't know I needed until the food noise was silenced.

 

[amosmylove]

Yep, im right on the ocean. Ya nailed it.

We moved from Oregon 7 years ago now. There is NO good seafood in the center parts of the US. Obviously it can't be caught fresh here but it's so hard to source it even frozen here. I grew up crabbing and eating halibut and salmon from the ocean...I haven't had halibut in over 7 years. It's a bummer for sure. It's all just catfish catfish catfish. Blarrghh!

 

[coach chickpea]

Do you think that is because of the anhedonia side effect?

I have this issue in general but have always connected it to my adhd.

Yes I do...I also have gene variations that affect methylation (adhd symptoms) but I never had this issue until I reached 1mg dose R

 

[amosmylove]

Yes I do...I also have gene variations that affect methylation (adhd symptoms) but I never had this issue until I reached 1mg dose R

Interesting. I just added in 1mg of Reta to my tirz stack. I haven't felt anything different or improved but it's only been about 2 weeks of it.

 

[coach chickpea]

Interesting. I just added in 1mg of Reta to my tirz stack. I haven't felt anything different or improved but it's only been about 2 weeks of it.

Yes it wasnt until 4 months in that this happened

 

[CNCCurrency]

I can relate to this. We save a lot of money because I'm not buying all the snacks for myself and don't care to go out anymore. I mean going out was always expensive with 7 of us, but I would still push to eat out multiple times a week because I liked to get out and eat something different.

I haven't found anything that gives me a dopamine fix like treats used to before, except Brussels sprouts, which is odd.

expensive with 7 of us

 

[amosmylove]

expensive with 7 of us

It'll be worse when we can't use the kids menu anymore! My kids are 11, 10, 8, 6 and 4.